General cleaning for the spirit while attracting the coolest shit from the Universe.
Disclaimer: Ima yap about astrology again weeeeee. Reminder: I use Wholesign houses and follow Hellenistic tradition.
Sup, Cult? So. I’ll try to make this quick and simple (bahaha). I got Moon in a sign-based conjunction with Lilith and Ketu in my 2nd house of Capricorn. My house of money and possessions is ruled by Saturn – and not even the cool Saturn, but the stern Saturn. “No you can’t go out” Saturn. “Finish your PHD before you can get a boyfriend” Saturn. And ya know. The moon is the moon. It can be moody AF. And while the moon may be in detriment in Capricorn, it also ain’t all that bad. There are some mitigating factors blah blah blah I won’t get into it, and though it wasn’t a bed of roses, it surely felt like a thorny bed time and time again.
I grew up in a see-saw of lack and acquisition. Sometimes we had it, and mostly we lost it. Had a house in one of the wealthiest neighbourhoods in town, but you didn’t know that we couldn’t pay for it. Had a BMW once, but had to give it back or something I dunno. Studied in one of the most prestigious schools in the country, but a few moments in my life I had to finish all my homework before sundown—because sundown meant no light. Why? We didn’t have electricity at home. We saw thru candlelight.
Don’t get me wrong. It wasn’t always like this. For the most part, life was as normal as it could be. But still, it was a see-saw. When we had something, we couldn’t appreciate it 100% because we knew that sooner or later, it would be taken away from us. We never felt safe. We were always on edge and on the move.
I have a lot of clients who have had particular traumas that allowed them to VOW to themselves to never experience the same hardships ever again, and that includes never passing down said hardships to their children. But in order to be true to their promise, they have become a shell of themselves, focused soley on their goal of “never again” that they don’t realize they are creating a new generation of beliefs for every cell of their bodies – and their children – and their children’s children – to carry.
So focused are we sometimes in the future, that we neglect to live in the present. Seeking safety that may never even come.
So what am I getting at here? Why all this blab about safety?
The word SAFETY has come up so many times in the last few months and I want to know if everybody’s definition of safety is aligned with the Universe’s.
We’ve got the fundamentals as living, breathing, 3D human beings which include food & shelter – be it temporary or permanent. But as we grow older, our basic necessities grow wider and wider.
– education
– friendships
– money to spend and money to save
– family
– a romantic partner
Then it goes on and on…
– a spot in your school of choice
– money FOR school of choice
– a job
Then it evolves…
– a GOOD job that pays well, has amazing benefits, a generous amount of vacation leaves (paid of course) and a good allotted amount of sick leaves with the promise of going up the career ladder every few years
– a house
– a spouse
– spawn (lol, I’m kidding already omg)
– children (there, happy?)
– a nice amount of material goods
Which turns to…
– material goods from THIS particular brand
– this MUCH AMOUNT of material goods
– yada yada yada
The basics grow and grow. And let me be clear, that’s not a bad thing at all. The better my job became, the bigger the changes in my nearest environment came to be.
From taking the train and jeepneys to go to my destination, I was able to take taxis instead. Which evolved to Ubers/Grabs. Lucky me!
In my 20s I remember imagining all the things I would save in case of an emergency. There was a list of suitcases and boxes that had my journals, clothes, memorabilia and so on and so forth. These days however, my phone, laptop, wallet, my three furry children and as many white t-shirts that I can fit into a small bag would suffice. If I had time, I’d save my lovely dresses, lol.
As I’ve gotten older, my taste in material goods, people, environment and life experiences has gone through some major refinement. I still like all of my things, but I’ve also learned to non-attach as we already have discussed in a previous post, nothing is permanent.
So what is it? Why do people like acquiring things which include not just material possessions, but accolades, validation and even people?
Let’s go back to me, cuz I’m a STAR.
As I’ve mentioned like a gagillion times, money was in and out. So by the time I actually had a job, for the first time in my life I learned the power of a PAYCHECK. All I had to do was show up to work, work (even if I didn’t like it), and every two weeks I got money. It was BRILLIANT! Best Feeling Evah!!!
I even remember the first thing I ever bought with my first salary: A Bikini. It felt good. Oh, it felt good!
And with each paycheck, my spending got worse. I was buying shit I wanted, shit I didn’t need, shit I never even used. But I “needed” shit. I coveted shit. Now that I had money, I was gonna overcompensate all the lack I felt in my childhood. Did I feel better? No. I felt like shit.
We all know someone who despite already being in the red, continue to use this small shiny plastic thing and make purchases that honestly is just a piling mountain of debt. It’s all the same thing: we all find comfort in the Lie of Purchasing Power. Work sucks? Feel better with a new pair of shiny shoes! Fought with your boyfriend? This gold necklace with a heart pendant will surely fill the emptiness you feel inside. Some people will feel the guilt, others will continue to shop until they drown in the sea of their hoarding madness.
For others however, it’s not tactile objects they want. It is the recognition which they will post on social media for more applause. I’ve done the same. And again, don’t confuse what I’m saying with “don’t post anything good on social media”. Of course you can! But along with the good, there is also the other real everyday stuff. Make sure your audience know you are human too.
And then, we’ve all been here in some shape or form: relationship attachment. Having absolute control over your partner as proof of true love. Or perhaps fear of letting someone go, ‘cuz who the hell is gonna love you???
We all have trauma. These days however, it is in to use psych lingo as a tactic to un-arm the people we care about.
But we all know the truth: this isn’t love. This is tyranny and self-imprisonment stemming from insecurity. We’re so afraid of being without, that we hoard. We’re so afraid of losing someone, that we put them in chains. We’re so afraid of repeating old cycles, that we don’t live at all.
Going back to my natal chart, at first glance, my Moon in 2nd House of Capricorn might seem like a bad placement. It may look like money is shaky and delayed (which isn’t necessarily false). But as I’ve grown older – and also as I advance my studies in astrology – I realize that this isn’t such a bad placement after all. While my Rahu is in the 8th house conjunct Venus – seeking love, validation and wealth, my Moon and Ketu are relaxed in Capricorn. Not in lack, but in absolute acceptance of impermanence.
Ok I lied about the absolute part. But in growing acceptance of impermanence. LOL.
Let me leave you with this mindfuck.
Marikondo doesn’t teach us to throw everything in the trash. Instead, she teaches us to fine tune ourselves. She trains us to feel and trust our senses, to know when it’s time to let something go, and to keep what SPARKS JOY.
So, let’s learn to live with the present. With the now. With what we do have. With what we CAN (and have the right to) control.
Let’s learn to be safe as we are, where we are.
* note: Of course, not everyone has this luxury.
There is nothing wrong with desire. Desire is a powerful tool to drive us to where we need to be. Let’s use our desires wisely.
Let’s refine our minds, our spirits, our souls. Let’s tweak our belief systems. Let’s change our perspectives. Let’s focus on what is important, what feeds us. What sparks joy. And I’m talking about our souls, y’all.
well fed and galloping,
brit
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