As we enter Scorpio season, we are now in the 1st decan which runs from around October 24th to November 2. And there are many ways to describe this decan – from a woman eating to her heart’s desire, to two men beating the shit out of each other… or to the more common Rider Waite tarot card the 5 of Cups, as we see pictured above. All this is quite a sight indeed, but one thing is clear: We must know what we want. And we must know WHY we want it.
First Decan of Scorpio
For this time period, I’d like us all to reflect on our inner desires. What is it we are truly chasing? Are our intentions good? Is it out of greed, the desire to have what others have? Or is it a passion, a calling? Something that will fulfill our goals as humans living out this lifetime?
This is the sombre and alarming reality of being alive. We want what we want, but perhaps it is time to think if what we want is even good for us. Is it purposeful and meaningful, or are we just blending in with the crowd?
In the 5 of Cups, we see a miserable cloaked man looking down at the spilled cups (containing what exactly? Is that wine or blood? Is that green glob vomit?) as if in grief. Is he regretting any of his choices? Was it something he did, or perhaps, something he didn’t do?
This is also a card of forgiveness. Perhaps it is time to forgive those who have hurt us, and more importantly, forgive ourselves for any transgressions we may have caused. We all are bound to make a few wrong turns in life – they are important, after all – and so, at one point or another, we will have to let the past be the past and move on to clearer and brighter pastures.
Wired Connection
I am writing this IG post/blog while waiting for the Globe technician to come to my house and fix my internet. And while I struggled with on and off connection for the last week, I always had my mobile data to rely on. But the last 24 hours I was faced with zero home wifi and zero mobile data.
We now live such wired lives, that a few hours without it, I am rendered unable to move. Even if I don’t live a hectic life (I’m no “girl boss”), I still found myself held hostage by my lack of wired connection. Unable to manage my personal and work life, and I am sitting here, waiting for this man to come tinker a box with wires for my life to start again.
This pause has made me reflect on the reality we live in: how much is any of this real? How much of any of this is important? How have we become so dependent on the internet, that I can’t do anything without it?
A part of me reveled on the idea of going back to what it was like in the 90s. Meeting up with friends at a specific place at a specific time, without the convenience of running late or changing location, just because we can now reach each other with our phones.
Life has changed so much since I was a teenager. And life is only about to become more complicated as we move on from 2025.
Forgiveness
Speaking of connections…
The last few weeks have been a montage of moments of reconciliation. I have either been in touch, met up, (or will meet up) a few people I have lost touch with over the years. No. I lied. I didn’t lose touch with them over the years.
I lost them. Intentionally.
As I delved deeper into my unconscious state, I began withdrawing from life as I found no solid ground to keep any of my connections alive. I pushed family, friends and even clients away. And by the time my Chaos Uninterrupted run was over, I was left with nothing.
I realized then, that the whole point wasn’t about finding people who were or thought like me, but knowing how to integrate despite our differences.
I can continue loving people and interacting with them, even if they make choices that I won’t make. I can continue sharing my life with them, even if they don’t understand where I’m coming from.
I had to lose what I had, in order to see their value in my life. And the months of September and October have taught me that I can forgive myself for allowing myself to even feel this way in the first place.
Mars in Scorpio
I love Scorpio season.
By all accounts in my life, Scorpio is a time of RECKONING. In my chart, it’s my 12th house, where my Lord, Jupiter, resides. I am comfortable in the uncomfortable, if that makes any sense. I find satisfaction in the rocky delving into the soul, which is why I’m so good at my job.
If we’re going to talk about archetypes, then Mars is all about the fire, passion, action. The doing without the thinking. The aggressive, violent and often inflammatory. Think red.
Scorpio on the other hand, is the watery feminine. It is deep, quiet and subtle. You won’t notice it until much later on. It’s the long con, if you will.
What’s interesting, is that Mars is at home in both Aries (the fiery red) and Scorpio (the nocturnal blue). But in Hellenistic Astrology, we know that Mars (not Pluto) not only rules Scorpio, but is happier there. Which seems like an irony if we look at it through the archetype.
But if you know the concept of sect (I won’t get into it here), then we know that Mars belongs to the Night Sect, and is happier in a night sign. Hence, Scorpio.
In Aries, Mars is in attack mode. “Ready, Fire, Aim” – as many astrologers have put it. But in Scorpio, it’s more deliberate. It might seem cold, even calculating to some. This is why Scorpios get the bad rap of being too obsessed, or even psychotic.
So, all this astrology tangent to remind you that this is the season to investigate the inner workings of your psyche. Why you do what you do, why you love what you love, why you want what you want. And possibly, the discernment of what is food for the soul, versus what is poison.
All right, y’all. That’s enough for now. Bheii.
brit-brit
more on the decans:
- T. Susan Chang -> https://www.tsusanchang.com
- Austin Coppock’s “36 Faces”
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