When I was a healing student almost 10 years ago now, I remember writing this long ass email consisting of around 30+ questions to my teacher. She said she’d reply within the week, and as those weeks turned into months, I ended up finding the answers myself.
By doing nothing and letting me wade around the pool of life on my own, she taught me something very important. Something I try my best to instill in my cult until this very day: EXPERIENCE IS YOUR BEST TEACHER.
Your body will tell you what you need to know, and sometimes you’ll realize you’ve had the answer all along.
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Wait a minute. Is that it? Is that my entire blog post?
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I seriously have nothing left to say. Okay I’ll try to write a bit more.
When I have first time clients, I will always entertain their questions which range from lengthy, mundane, silly, validation seeking, questions that were not worded in the best fashion, curious, gossipy, obsolete, deep, to mindfucks. The first session is usually the most taxing on me, as I have to train these spiritual toddlers (lol am I mean) to ascertain themselves accordingly. But as they are newbies, I am open ears, open heart, open mind and I will answer without judgment to the best of my ability.
But when some clients turn to me for every single thing that happens in their lives, I start turning them away. Look, I love money and money loves me. But as a practitioner, I also cannot enable clients to see me as an all-knowing goddess even if I portray myself as one.
A long time ago, pre-pandemic (sounds so prehistoric) I had a face to face client who was acting like a petulant child. For the first and last time in my career, I took this client by the shoulders and shook her non-violently. “STOP IT! STOP IT!!!” I yelled.
Shocked by my actions, she stopped. That was our second to the last session together. We gave it one more shot before I called it quits. I was honest and said we’ve hit a wall, and I can be of no help to her anymore. Distraught but understanding, she accepted the severance of our client-therapist relationship, but also declined my offer for her to see someone new.
A year later she sent me a message. She said that when we stopped the monthly sessions, that’s when she got better. That’s when she got herself straightened out.
Wow, it doesn’t sound like I’m marketing myself very well in this post, but trust me there’s a reason I’m confidently sharing this. I know I act like an arrogant prick at times. I act like an all-knowing guru that you need to get down on your knees for, kiss my feet and offer me goodies so I can shower you all with blessings.
But I’m not that. I never was and never will be. I won’t promise you anything because at the end of the day, you are responsible for your own healing. I am here simply to facilitate it.
When I let my client go, she learned to fend for herself. At that point she’d had enough sessions with me to know what needed to be done. All she needed now was to act on it. And without me, she finally had no choice but to show up for herself the same way I had no choice but to find my own answers when my teacher left me with no reply.
Life is a mystery. That’s what makes it fun. Sure, as a healer/reader/astrologer I can “see” a few things about my own life and future. I may know that things pan out, but I also don’t know HOW they pan out. And that’s the fun part of life, figuring it out. Sometimes you have someone to walk that path with you, and sometimes you’re a lone wolf.
This October, let’s navigate this torrential eclipse season by knowing that THIS TOO SHALL PASS. For some of us, this month will be the start of many wonderful and beautiful things, while for others it marks the ending of an onslaught of uglies. Allow yourselves to rest, and let your bodies and intuition tell you what you need.
You don’t need a guru to enlighten you all the time. You got you.
That being said, I’m the coolest Unicorn guru and don’t you forget it.
Happy (happy???) eclipse season everyone!
see ya!
brit-brit
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